So many forms of tired!

I have not slept in at least three days. My right shoulder has been hurting so badly, it keeps me up at night.  Around 3 a.m. I wake up and it is throbbing. This morning I had an appointment with the doctor who performed my shoulder surgeries.  After telling him what was going on he decided to give me a cortisone shot.  Why not? Another shot. Ah!

Within five minutes, it felt so much better. Hoping I will sleep tonight. 

After that appointment, I ran over to the physical therapy center and turned in his prescription for 4-6 weeks of PT.  Still had some time before my IVF appointment, so I went and got a smoothie from Planet Smoothie with extra soy protein. Went to my IVF appointment, blood, ultrasound, and it looks good.  Good but not good enough to start the trigger shot.  Yes, I knew this was coming. Extra days of stimulation because of the Ganorelix which slows things down.  But, after ten days of stimulation, I am so ready to be done. 

I feel antsy. Annoyed. Agitated. Antsy. Tired. Tired. 

Every night we take these shots and I get a deep throbbing headache about an hour after that lasts deep into the night as a known side effect. Pray for Travis! That's all he hears when he gets home. How uncomfortable I feel!  I try to be conscious of it because I am sure it wears on him too.

So, to tell me I have at least 2-3 more days of this seems like eternity!  The days are so long!

Appointment in the morning, blood work results in the late afternoon, adjust medicine as needed and repeat. Waiting for the numbers to be good enough to take the trigger shot, wait another 36 hours, then move to Phase 2 - egg retrieval.  The part we didn't get to last time!

I am ready for Phase 1 to be done.  Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday, hurry up and get here already!

Update:

13 follicles on my right and 9 on my left. Average size is 15 mm.  Optimal size with mature eggs is 18-22.  See how far away I am? Rhetorical question. Sigh.

Estrogen level on Saturday was 1,060.  Estrogen level today was only 1,465. We were hoping for 2,000. Thank you Ganorelix.  Optimal levels would be 2,100-3,100.

Must give big kudos to my boss, Amanda. She knows what we're going through since I have appointments every other day!  She has been very kind. Especially today. I emailed her and see if she would be available to cover orientation this week or we could move it to next week?  She said she would re-arrange some meetings to "do whatever she could for baby Turner."  Reading those words "baby Turner" made me tear up!

That is the core of what we are doing. Whatever it takes for baby Turner!

This whole process is very sterile, precise, and clinical.  The baby part seems very very very far off. One day at a time has a whole new meaning these days.  The days are long and involved with IVF either at the moment or in the back of my brain.  As Ms. Marlene used to say (insert strong Jamaican accent here) 'don'tcha know a watch pot never boil?'  Ms. Marlene that is exactly how I feel! We need to add some salt to this pot so it boils more quickly!

My next appointment is tomorrow morning. My appointments are everyday now so they can keep a close eye on the progress. 

More to come then...